i didn't want to monday today. lethargic. tired. sleepy. no vigour. over it. went to the office. did some work. bleh. something has to change. it is going to. but first i need a holiday. i'm always amazed when i say that. i was unemployed for 4 years. i've been working since july 2021. month … Continue reading 20211213: blue monday
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20211212: (don’t) rest day
i need to learn to rest. it's Sunday today. i didn't go to church. omicron. the president tested positive for covid. fully vaccinated. the conversation around it is interesting. i'm over the drama and the division. why do people continue with the division in the midst of a pandemic? who's got the time? i don't … Continue reading 20211212: (don’t) rest day
20211208: passive/ion aggressive
i loved you once, i love you still somewhere deep down. i found myself veering towards the passive aggressive because the words i wanted to say to you was stopped in my throat. a while back. they want out. the opportunity to say them to you has passed. choices. time. it will subside. breathe. the … Continue reading 20211208: passive/ion aggressive
20211204: venting
It's been going for a while. I have a place where I go where I say the things I want to say the way I really want to say it. after that it becomes a process of elimination. eliminating the words that make it subjective preventing the real message to come across. I'm grateful for … Continue reading 20211204: venting
45/2021/41: Sick day / Rest day
I very rarely get or feel really sick or unwell. And I haven't had a sick day in a long time. I generally work through the odd not so 'lekke' feeling days. But today I wake up and I feel ... well, not well. But I have to get up because I need to run … Continue reading 45/2021/41: Sick day / Rest day
45/2021/37: Quick breather
Today was unplanned and planned. I knew coffee with a friend was on the cards. I knew I had to take my Mom to the optometrist. I didn't know Mom wanted to go have coffee to get out a little. I should've known. Coz that one ... she always wants to be extra ... a … Continue reading 45/2021/37: Quick breather
45/2021/30: Safe spaces
Today I disagreed (internally) with something someone did, said, decided ... I didn't feel like saying what I thought because I had before and clearly it wasn't taken into consideration. And then there's the tone ... There are things that was part of my growing up that makes me feel unsafe when it happens. I … Continue reading 45/2021/30: Safe spaces
45/2021/11: No thoughts
I thought of many things. And I thought of no things. It's a loveliness. The picture showed me a space where I would thinks of nothing and only look at the beauty of Autumn. Smell it. Feel it. Take it in. Deep breaths. Autumn reminds me that it's time to wind down, lose things, shake … Continue reading 45/2021/11: No thoughts
45/2021/9: A walk at Vergelegen
Blessed. Grateful. Mesmerised.Roses. Trees. Life.Sunshine. Rain. Clouds.Love. Age. Friendship.Coffee. Walks. Conversation.Fragrance. Beauty. Breathe.Leaves. Branches. Roots. A beautiful morning at Vergelegen ... a walking coffee through the garden.Peeking through a hedge ... Silver leaves shining in the sunlightParentals. The love is evident. The little things.Driving into ... Ah ... trees ... such character ... age ... … Continue reading 45/2021/9: A walk at Vergelegen
45/2021/2: Breathe …
This week's been special.I was gifted a few days in a space ... alone. Thank you, Mom and Dad.I took walks.I met up with people I haven't seen in a long time.And I spent time with me.I received good news.I had time to breathe. Sea Point beach in black and white. 11 May 2021 I … Continue reading 45/2021/2: Breathe …
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