26: Weird vibes

This morning I woke up with a mission. Clean the kitchen, make breakfast for parentals, cook for dinner and meet a friend for coffee at 12. Sometime during the morning my tomorrow check in was moved to today for after 2pm. Great! Full day! Weird vibes ... I feel off-ish. Someone in the back of … Continue reading 45/2021/26: Weird vibes →

2020: 10

22 December 5 x 2 = 10 In 2013 I joined a life group at church. It was around November I think. One of the couples was not around for a while, I can't remember where they were at the time but they were not in town. I met them in January 2014. They became … Continue reading 2020: 10 →

2020: 34

28 November 34 = 17 x 2 ... I just realised that I do not know the 17x table. I had to sing at a party today. I sang at a funeral last week. I haven't really sung any solo's for a long time. I haven't practised any vocal exercises in years. I haven't been … Continue reading 2020: 34 →

2020: 44

18 November 11 x 4 = 44 = 2 x 22The number of my current age. I hear the echo of someone saying ... You are still young ... in the hopes of deflecting my attention / attraction / interest (I think). Fascinating. It was too late. The comment felt somewhat dismissive ... as if … Continue reading 2020: 44 →

2020: 67

26 October It's a boy's birthday today. He is 14. He's been going through a really tough time at stages in his life because of decisions made by his Dad. His Mom is my friend. His Dad ... well, he's chosen a path that has broken hearts and will still break hearts. But this boy … Continue reading 2020: 67 →

2020: 69

24 October Friendship today started with cake and cappuccino’s for breakfast. Hummingbird cake ... yum. It was delicious! Check in conversation, sustainable coffee mugs with the logo: stay rooted. Significant. The coffee was good. Cake was delish. Company was friendship = great! Idea sharing, product discussions, new possibilities. The inimitable Ms P. I thank you. … Continue reading 2020: 69 →

2020: 73

20 October A loudly, quiet day. Something's amiss. I know what it is. I've over-romanticised it. It never happened the way I want to think it. In fact, it made me feel worse for hoping. Today I learnt about dissociation. It seems it's something I do. A revelation. Indicative of more / deeper / ... … Continue reading 2020: 73 →

2020: 85

08 October Just after 1 this morning I was chatting to a friend who tell me that she has just opened her gifts she bought for herself. Yes, she didn't forget. And I, her stellar friend, didn't even know we were in Thursday the 8th already. Hehehe!Today was her birthday. Low key, great friend! We … Continue reading 2020: 85 →

The 4:44 PM: Everything’s gonna be okay

17 Years ago today a voicemail was left on my phone to let me know that you died in a road accident with 8 fellow musicians, including your brother. I listened to the voicemail message on the tile floor of my then employer. This was followed by long conversations with friends who knew you and … Continue reading The 4:44 PM: Everything’s gonna be okay →

Day 14: 44 to 44 at 4:44

Intentionality: Friendship Since my brother mentioned intentionality years ago it's been a growing thought throughout my thoughts, actions, words and relationships. What is my intention when and how I say or do something? What is my intention in a relationship? Why am I in this relationship / friendship? Am I there for a specific goal? … Continue reading Day 14: 44 to 44 at 4:44 →