i didn't want to monday today. lethargic. tired. sleepy. no vigour. over it. went to the office. did some work. bleh. something has to change. it is going to. but first i need a holiday. i'm always amazed when i say that. i was unemployed for 4 years. i've been working since july 2021. month … Continue reading 20211213: blue monday
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2020: 43
19 November 43 = A prime number. Today, a funeral. Suicide. A young man. His friends came as one. Each of them told a story / stories about him at the gathering after the service. It was such a beautiful, heartwarming experience. I remembered his lovely, warm, playful spirit like he was there. Sadness was … Continue reading 2020: 43
2020: 68
25 October Investment. Return on investment (roi). Thoughts on it. How do we invest in our relationships? And what is the expected return on investment when you make an intentional choice to invest? And what if the return is not what you thought / calculated / hoped it would be? Hmmm ... Disappointment maybe? My … Continue reading 2020: 68
2020: 96
Today. What happened today? Friend and sons left South African soil. They will be in the arms of home tomorrow. Yay!I found a little corner in my heart where a love sparkle has landed. What to do?I slept late. It was so good. A friend came to visit. I don't think she knows how much … Continue reading 2020: 96
Day 42: 44 to 44 at 4:44
I like you but I don't want to ... Years ago when I was a student at university I had a major crush on this guy. I think it was in my third year. He was a friend who suddenly just started looking like he should be my person. I was confused and upset. I … Continue reading Day 42: 44 to 44 at 4:44
Day 40: 44 to 44 at 4:44
Turmoil So this year, like last year and unlike the years before, I am excited about my birthday. It's on a Saturday and there would've been more excitement if I was at the Croatian Salsa Festival or I could have the party that January saw in my mind. However, every year I also experience some … Continue reading Day 40: 44 to 44 at 4:44
Day 32: 44 to 44 at 4:44
Space - Respect (Every time I hear that I want to say: "Space: the final frontier" as spoken in Star Trek ... give me a moment. Let me smile. Between Captain Kirk, Mr Spock and Captain Jean-Luc Picard ... fond memories.) I have space issues. I think.After an unplanned, overdue, challenging piece of communication that … Continue reading Day 32: 44 to 44 at 4:44
Day 31: 44 to 44 at 4:44
Lazy Days I went to bed last night switching off all my alarms - I'm a snoozer ... I decided to wake up when I will and want to wake up today. I needed such a day. So this morning I woke up around 10am. Knowing that I want to do some laundry, so I … Continue reading Day 31: 44 to 44 at 4:44
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