I took a little writing sabbatical, 2 months short.Life took a wild, interesting, challenging turn.I decided that January 2021 is either the last month of 2020 or the probation month for 2021. January started out in quarantine. Covid 19 exposure. An uncle in hospital. An uncle discharged. Looking for carers. Cleaning house. Health. Health. Health. … Continue reading January 2021 … Probation
Tag: intention
2020: 68
25 October Investment. Return on investment (roi). Thoughts on it. How do we invest in our relationships? And what is the expected return on investment when you make an intentional choice to invest? And what if the return is not what you thought / calculated / hoped it would be? Hmmm ... Disappointment maybe? My … Continue reading 2020: 68
2020: 75
18 October I read the following a few minutes ago:Someone asked me "Who hurt you?I replied "My own expectations" I was reminded about this earlier when I had a conversation with a friend about speaking the truth instead some euphemistic dance of words hoping that the other person can read the message between the lines … Continue reading 2020: 75
The 4:44 PM: Reach out
I appreciate friends who reach out to check in.A few words or paragraphs, voice / video call or voice note.I appreciate it. The thought that I was thought of is enough.Especially now. But also not just now.Edifying.It makes me feel like I'm surrounded by love.I've been surprised by some of the people who has reached … Continue reading The 4:44 PM: Reach out
The 4:44 PM: Closing doors
I have too many back doors open. Possibilities that linger. They're not really valid. False hope. Some are being fed on the odd occasion. False feeding. The past week confronted and reminder me with the almost forgotten back doors that I keep open. Automatically. It drains energy like a light forgotten on. Like a seemingly … Continue reading The 4:44 PM: Closing doors
The 4:44 PM: Heart overflowing
Today my heart is overflowing with pride, joy and gratitude. I was reminded this week that the work that I've done in my past in places where I felt worthless afterwards, had made an impact. A message of thanks reminded me how powerful intentionality is. I've always wanted to do meaningful work. And I thought … Continue reading The 4:44 PM: Heart overflowing
Day 43: 44 to 44 at 4:44
Access Image by TanteTati from Pixabay Who has access to me?An how do who have access to me? I've been feeling very tired the last few days. Fatigued. Sinus acting up, hordes of things that I'm thinking about and the news. The feelings that I feel are mostly disappointment (crime stats), sadness (for deaths and … Continue reading Day 43: 44 to 44 at 4:44
Day 42: 44 to 44 at 4:44
I like you but I don't want to ... Years ago when I was a student at university I had a major crush on this guy. I think it was in my third year. He was a friend who suddenly just started looking like he should be my person. I was confused and upset. I … Continue reading Day 42: 44 to 44 at 4:44
Day 19: 44 to 44 at 4:44
Shhh Life is busy. Even amidst lockdown with all the plans to read and do things that I've always set aside ... I find myself busy. And up until two weeks ago sometimes not even remembering what I did for that day. I was reminded today that I need to sit still. Just sit still. … Continue reading Day 19: 44 to 44 at 4:44
Day 14: 44 to 44 at 4:44
Intentionality: Friendship Since my brother mentioned intentionality years ago it's been a growing thought throughout my thoughts, actions, words and relationships. What is my intention when and how I say or do something? What is my intention in a relationship? Why am I in this relationship / friendship? Am I there for a specific goal? … Continue reading Day 14: 44 to 44 at 4:44
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