i loved you once, i love you still somewhere deep down. i found myself veering towards the passive aggressive because the words i wanted to say to you was stopped in my throat. a while back. they want out. the opportunity to say them to you has passed. choices. time. it will subside. breathe. the … Continue reading 20211208: passive/ion aggressive
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45/2021/38: Just go with it
I slept in today. Chilled morning. It's quite interesting. It feels like I very rarely do that. I felt more tired when I woke up and got up. Like I slept too much. I didn't. I went to bed before midnight, but went to sleep after 3. Don't ask. One of those things. Brain not … Continue reading 45/2021/38: Just go with it
45/2021/37: Quick breather
Today was unplanned and planned. I knew coffee with a friend was on the cards. I knew I had to take my Mom to the optometrist. I didn't know Mom wanted to go have coffee to get out a little. I should've known. Coz that one ... she always wants to be extra ... a … Continue reading 45/2021/37: Quick breather
45/2021/23: FriYAY???
The day kinda flew by. It feels like a myriad of feelings and actions and things and Friday. I feel like I'm supposed to be doing some kind of happy dance because it's weekend ... however ... the days feel like they're flowing into each other with one coming and one going ... all the … Continue reading 45/2021/23: FriYAY???
45/2021/9: A walk at Vergelegen
Blessed. Grateful. Mesmerised.Roses. Trees. Life.Sunshine. Rain. Clouds.Love. Age. Friendship.Coffee. Walks. Conversation.Fragrance. Beauty. Breathe.Leaves. Branches. Roots. A beautiful morning at Vergelegen ... a walking coffee through the garden.Peeking through a hedge ... Silver leaves shining in the sunlightParentals. The love is evident. The little things.Driving into ... Ah ... trees ... such character ... age ... … Continue reading 45/2021/9: A walk at Vergelegen
45/2021/6: Immaculate art
Stellenbosch sky, 7:24am, 18 May 2021Photo by karisMatiek This morning was a beauty! Got up early to go for a walk with a buddy. My phone couldn't and wouldn't have done justice to the sky at 6:45am. Darkness with a lick of fire in the corner where the mountains meet. I could only look up … Continue reading 45/2021/6: Immaculate art
45/2021/4: Unplanned
Today the plan was church. A quick coffee. Home. Today became church. Conversation with a friend I haven't seen in a while with some interesting information. Lunch with a friend. A drive with another friend to start a new chapter of life. Home. Unplanned. Unexpected. Lovely. The next few weeks will be planned. Some things … Continue reading 45/2021/4: Unplanned
2020: 18
14 December 9 x 2 = 18 = 3 x 6 Today's realisation ... there are things that I feel on my body that needs to leave ... they all feel squishy, soft, cuddly, fluffy ... but they must go coz they are showing right thought things they shouldn't be showing!!! Eish ... hahaha! Maybe … Continue reading 2020: 18
2020: 44
18 November 11 x 4 = 44 = 2 x 22The number of my current age. I hear the echo of someone saying ... You are still young ... in the hopes of deflecting my attention / attraction / interest (I think). Fascinating. It was too late. The comment felt somewhat dismissive ... as if … Continue reading 2020: 44
2020: 59
03 November I was asked interesting questions today: Why would I want to work here? What draws you to the rigidity of the routine (of the specific place)?... in process ... Today, like every day, was an interesting day. Why? Because it was? Little things. Messages. Thoughts. Questions. Answers. Representation. Outfits. Epic fails. Successes. Little … Continue reading 2020: 59
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