i loved you once, i love you still somewhere deep down. i found myself veering towards the passive aggressive because the words i wanted to say to you was stopped in my throat. a while back. they want out. the opportunity to say them to you has passed. choices. time. it will subside. breathe. the … Continue reading 20211208: passive/ion aggressive
Today was a processing kinda day. I don't even know how to explain it. I don't know what I have done but my head has made decisions on a few things in the process without me intentionally thinking about it. I've probably overthought it. And then left it. And then ... VOILA! Decision made. I'm … Continue reading 45/2021/15: Processing
This one is about you … maybe.
What was your expectation when I told you I love you? You said you love me too, but ... not the same and there's someone else you chose. My life had to go on. My life has to go on. Was I supposed to wait for it to change? What was I supposed to hope … Continue reading This one is about you … maybe.
January 2021 … Probation
I took a little writing sabbatical, 2 months short.Life took a wild, interesting, challenging turn.I decided that January 2021 is either the last month of 2020 or the probation month for 2021. January started out in quarantine. Covid 19 exposure. An uncle in hospital. An uncle discharged. Looking for carers. Cleaning house. Health. Health. Health. … Continue reading January 2021 … Probation
25 December It's Christmas! What a day. Lowkey. Quiet. Sadness. More death. Life. Joy. Gratitude. Resilience. Connection. Reconnection. Gifts. Thank yous. Noise. Silence. Laughter. Messages. Thoughts. Tired. Busyness. Cooking. Baking. Table setting. Surprises. Joy. Love. Peace. I have not much to day,Except today, was a good day.Thank you. The Grinch
24 December 4 x 2 = 8 It is the night before Christmas ... it is also some level of lockdown with a curfew amidst the second of the pandemic. The usual cooking is scaled down immensely. I'm grateful for that. The levels of cooking we went to for Christmas was exorbitant usually ... and … Continue reading 2020: 8
16 December 4 x 4 = 16 = 2 x 8 16 December is the 16th last day of the year, every year!!! Very interesting. For me. 🙂 The Parentals are married for 46 years today! I heard a few amusing wedding day stories today! Why did they wait 46 years to tell a person? … Continue reading 2020: 16
02 / 12 / 2020 10 x 3 = 30 = 5 x 6 Image by Gerd Altmann from Pixabay I miss having a full programme of things that I love to do for work. Yes, I have had many opportunities to work on various projects over the past 3 years. Some work, some volunteer … Continue reading 2020: 30
24 November 19 x 2 = 38 “Learn the art of acceptance. It’s a lot of grief."Excerpt From: Beattie, Melody. “Codependent No More: How to Stop Controlling Others and Start Caring for Yourself.” The above quote felt like a punch disguised as caress when I read it this past week. Why? Because acceptance means that … Continue reading 2020: 38
19 November 43 = A prime number. Today, a funeral. Suicide. A young man. His friends came as one. Each of them told a story / stories about him at the gathering after the service. It was such a beautiful, heartwarming experience. I remembered his lovely, warm, playful spirit like he was there. Sadness was … Continue reading 2020: 43