I used the wrong word. It's more like, I used the wrong word to replace wronger words. And now I have to reap what I've sown. More words. More explanations. More unnecessary. There are things that I have forgotten. Things not to do, not to say, to keep my face straight. But why? To keep … Continue reading 20211203: overwhelming overwhelmedness
Tag: quiet
45/2021/41: Sick day / Rest day
I very rarely get or feel really sick or unwell. And I haven't had a sick day in a long time. I generally work through the odd not so 'lekke' feeling days. But today I wake up and I feel ... well, not well. But I have to get up because I need to run … Continue reading 45/2021/41: Sick day / Rest day
45/2021/30: Safe spaces
Today I disagreed (internally) with something someone did, said, decided ... I didn't feel like saying what I thought because I had before and clearly it wasn't taken into consideration. And then there's the tone ... There are things that was part of my growing up that makes me feel unsafe when it happens. I … Continue reading 45/2021/30: Safe spaces
2020: 59
03 November I was asked interesting questions today: Why would I want to work here? What draws you to the rigidity of the routine (of the specific place)?... in process ... Today, like every day, was an interesting day. Why? Because it was? Little things. Messages. Thoughts. Questions. Answers. Representation. Outfits. Epic fails. Successes. Little … Continue reading 2020: 59
Day 33: 44 to 44 at 4:44
Second First Language Who am I in my second language? Can you see my personality when I speak it, write it, use it? English is my second language. I started speaking it to my cousins because some of them are mother tongue English speakers. At school we had to do English, Second Language as a … Continue reading Day 33: 44 to 44 at 4:44
Day 21: 44 to 44 at 4:44
The Silence of Shock I was almost in an accident last week. I had a passenger in the back. Lockdown regulations. A rainy Tuesday morning. I love rain and rainy mornings. It brings about some calm in my soul in otherwise busy insides. This morning I felt grey. I got some challenging news the day … Continue reading Day 21: 44 to 44 at 4:44
Day 19: 44 to 44 at 4:44
Shhh Life is busy. Even amidst lockdown with all the plans to read and do things that I've always set aside ... I find myself busy. And up until two weeks ago sometimes not even remembering what I did for that day. I was reminded today that I need to sit still. Just sit still. … Continue reading Day 19: 44 to 44 at 4:44
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