i didn't want to monday today. lethargic. tired. sleepy. no vigour. over it. went to the office. did some work. bleh. something has to change. it is going to. but first i need a holiday. i'm always amazed when i say that. i was unemployed for 4 years. i've been working since july 2021. month … Continue reading 20211213: blue monday
Tag: sigh
20211209: obgyn
how excited was i for my way overdue appointment with my obgyn. excited why? coz i was eveready! mammogram done! ready for the long talk because i haven't been there in a while (we have a special relationship because I had to go visit for tests lots about a decade or so ago???) i was … Continue reading 20211209: obgyn
20211203: overwhelming overwhelmedness
I used the wrong word. It's more like, I used the wrong word to replace wronger words. And now I have to reap what I've sown. More words. More explanations. More unnecessary. There are things that I have forgotten. Things not to do, not to say, to keep my face straight. But why? To keep … Continue reading 20211203: overwhelming overwhelmedness
45/2021/43: Almost
Do you countdown the days to your birthday? I don't really. Never used to. Lockdown had me do it in 2020 because I decided to blog daily for the 44 days before my birthday. And here I am ... doing it again. Why? No idea. Probably for my own thoughts to be somewhere for reflection. … Continue reading 45/2021/43: Almost
45/2021/30: Safe spaces
Today I disagreed (internally) with something someone did, said, decided ... I didn't feel like saying what I thought because I had before and clearly it wasn't taken into consideration. And then there's the tone ... There are things that was part of my growing up that makes me feel unsafe when it happens. I … Continue reading 45/2021/30: Safe spaces
2020: 50
12 November Bridge of SighsImage by Karl Andrich from Pixabay Sigh ... I sigh a lot. Without thinking. It's like an automatic something. I never noticed it until my ex-colleagues told me to stop sighing. At first they kept asking me what's wrong ... and nothing was. I never even heard myself. I still wonder … Continue reading 2020: 50
2020: 61
01 November 2020 1/11/20201:1:1 Yesterday made me aware of something.I am the one and I am not the one.When I want to be the one, I am not.When I don't want to be the one, I am.Typing this has me smiling. Reading this almost has me laugh out loud. I learnt a few things this … Continue reading 2020: 61
2020: 83
10 October Rest day.Slept late.Had oats for breakfast.Ordered food for early dinner.Finished a tiny little surprise project for a friend.Loved doing it. Smiled through the entire thing. Love lives here. I've learnt a thing or two about love being single 'my entire life' - meaning no significantly serious relationship I can think of in retrospect … Continue reading 2020: 83
2020: 93
And just like that September 2020 is over. South Africa is still in lockdown. The pandemic is not over and it won't be for a while. How have we acclimatised? This is now part of life. I won't say the new normal, coz what is normal really? Normal differs for everybody. Doesn't it? Today was … Continue reading 2020: 93
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