It's been a while... Let me rather look at the flowers and it's beauty and messages. There's been a whole lot of email word violence in the 'where-my-salary-comes-from'-aspect of my life over the past 2 weeks. It's draining. I'm disappointed. Upper seats who don't understand that context is important and that a good idea deserves … Continue reading What is going on?
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loop rond in my lyf, hart, brein, drome soms ... jy. los my af ... asb ... moenie ... jy. ek weet nie jy. nee ... ja ... ek weet nie ... jy. het altyd vrae. ek ken nie die antwoorde nie want ... ek wil nie die antwoorde hardop sê nie. jy. jy weet. … Continue reading jy
20211214: gotta do what i gotta do
today loads of physical work needs to be done. banking moving removing ... Image by Gerd Altmann from Pixabay the last few days before my leave starts. my calendar has already filled up with things to do in my break of three weeks ... fascinating. the want to connect. the need to see and talk. … Continue reading 20211214: gotta do what i gotta do
20211213: blue monday
i didn't want to monday today. lethargic. tired. sleepy. no vigour. over it. went to the office. did some work. bleh. something has to change. it is going to. but first i need a holiday. i'm always amazed when i say that. i was unemployed for 4 years. i've been working since july 2021. month … Continue reading 20211213: blue monday
20211212: (don’t) rest day
i need to learn to rest. it's Sunday today. i didn't go to church. omicron. the president tested positive for covid. fully vaccinated. the conversation around it is interesting. i'm over the drama and the division. why do people continue with the division in the midst of a pandemic? who's got the time? i don't … Continue reading 20211212: (don’t) rest day
20211211: new people
this is what i said. i went for coffee. 6 hours long coffee. i had to laugh afterwards. i met new people. how lovely it was to be in a different place, space, culture, people ... new people. unplanned. welcoming. lovely. easy-going, new people. and i spent hours in their company, in their home. the … Continue reading 20211211: new people
20211210: it’s oh so quiet
Image by Oleg Mityukhin from Pixabay today was a quiet day at work. i had a lot to do and did a lot. i was busy. it was quiet. i loved it. i need a few more of those. hopefully next week. got things to do. i need more quiet. everything has been too busy … Continue reading 20211210: it’s oh so quiet
20211209: obgyn
how excited was i for my way overdue appointment with my obgyn. excited why? coz i was eveready! mammogram done! ready for the long talk because i haven't been there in a while (we have a special relationship because I had to go visit for tests lots about a decade or so ago???) i was … Continue reading 20211209: obgyn
20211208: passive/ion aggressive
i loved you once, i love you still somewhere deep down. i found myself veering towards the passive aggressive because the words i wanted to say to you was stopped in my throat. a while back. they want out. the opportunity to say them to you has passed. choices. time. it will subside. breathe. the … Continue reading 20211208: passive/ion aggressive
20211207: work from home
at home there is peace and quiet and i get lot of things done. i think. i thought. i was wrong. it requires some other level of spice now that i've been back to the office. but it gets done. i am also thinking of what i still need to do at the office. the … Continue reading 20211207: work from home
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