I started decluttering a few weeks ago … clothes, shows, papers … soon to go is diaries, notebooks and possibly books … so much has been trekking around with me over the past 10 years and they have all been weighing me down in a season of difficulty, illness, challenges,. The mind shift to the … Continue reading 2025 | chapter 12, page 335 | decluttering
2025 | chapter 11, page 334 | listen to me
Beach day What my body's been trying to tell me my body has been trying to tell me to rest better, to stick to my promises, to listen to it better, to stick to the eating plan, to move more and exercise, to care for it better. i have not been listening. well, i started … Continue reading 2025 | chapter 11, page 334 | listen to me
2025 | chapter 11, page 333 | puzzles, sand & sandcastles
One playful thing I want to make time for i would like to, in the coming break, build more puzzles ... probably only one because it has 1500 pieces. of which some might be gone. i hope not. i have had the puzzle for so long. i need some puzzle play time ... with no … Continue reading 2025 | chapter 11, page 333 | puzzles, sand & sandcastles
2025 | chapter 11, page 332 | vulnerability when
I feel safest being vulnerable when ... when the people around me or sharing the space, place and time with me are being vulnerable too or with a trusted friend. i've been vulnerable with a number of people whom I thought were my friends ... they moved away slowly but surely ... now, i know … Continue reading 2025 | chapter 11, page 332 | vulnerability when
2025 | chapter 11, page 331 | the soft landing
A soft place I can land this week the soft landing i have in mind is not possible ... a discussion for another day ... it has something to do with the soft life i would like to have with a partner, my partner (i live in hope and prayer for this one) ah ... … Continue reading 2025 | chapter 11, page 331 | the soft landing
2025 | chapter 11, page 330 | quit for (your own) good
One thing I can quit without guilt fans out! summer's here! the wanting to help in spaces where the adults should be adulting and do the work to help themselves and figure it out themselves and connect themselves and have the hard conversations and have the difficult engagement and to just quit the person and … Continue reading 2025 | chapter 11, page 330 | quit for (your own) good
2025 | chapter 11, page 329 | do i permit myself?
What i secretly wish I had more permission to do I think in some spaces I do not permit myself to say things because there would be the type of clapback that is unnecessary, unprofessional and quite vitriolic. I wish I could give myself the permission to comment and ask certain questions in specific situations … Continue reading 2025 | chapter 11, page 329 | do i permit myself?
2025 | chapter 11, page 328 | lazy
mornings A lie burnout tells me (and what's more true) burnout tells me that i am lazy ... i am supposed to do, be, engage, check in, contact, reach out, ... the interesting things that the voices in our head is telling us when we are at the end of our rope but was raised … Continue reading 2025 | chapter 11, page 328 | lazy
2025 | chapter 11, page 327 | tired
I feel most disconnected from myself when ... when i am tired. and there are things i have to do. or when i go somewhere and i have had a feeling that i should not be there or should not go ... some premonition. this would be the reason i choose rest. choosing days for … Continue reading 2025 | chapter 11, page 327 | tired
2025 | chapter 11, page 326 | reflection time
One boundary I want to test out this week the boundary to block off time for reflection, oversight over the year, reflection and planning. important for me after years of having no idea of what's going on and how I am moving forward. time to take control again of things that ran amuck. it's Saturday. … Continue reading 2025 | chapter 11, page 326 | reflection time
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