A lie burnout tells me (and what’s more true)
burnout tells me that i am lazy … i am supposed to do, be, engage, check in, contact, reach out, …
the interesting things that the voices in our head is telling us when we are at the end of our rope but was raised that we have to help and be there and carry people and and and … i find that, as a woman, i have more of this inclination that my male compatriots … my brothers … my male friends … especially the cohort of eldest daughters and some eldest sons. i am generalising, however this is my experience and conversations I have had within my family and friend circle.
the voice is quite strong in my head and these days i do get it right to quiet it or two engage with the thought on why this is a thing I have to do. because it’s not. unless i choose from healthy capacity.
i am not lazy. i have faced many challenges. i have done many things for many people amidst not feeling well because they are older, pensioners and not as mobile as i am … i should probably not have done some of the things because it worsened my health condition. i did though. not lazy. i can be if i choose to … rest lazy … healthy rest lazy as part of balance.
my energy is increasing most of the time. i have to manage myself though. there are limits.
i will continue to silence the voice of accusation. i know better.
24 November 2025
KarisMatiek 