chairs in my office ... and water post-assessment relief is real ... post-assessment realisation is ... you can do it ... you have the ability, intelligence, focus, energy to get such things done to still get some development of the things you want under your belt to achieve what you have wanted to achieve even … Continue reading 2025 | chapter 10, page 295 | relief, reminders, realisations
course done. everything submitted. everything assessed. requirements met. declared competent. NEXT!!! i procrastinated. hard. why? many reasons. i knew i could do it. i just had to start. it was also challenging because i had not worked in that field in aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaages so it took quite some time for my thinking and eyes to get … Continue reading 2025 | chapter 10, page 294 | the doings of getting things done
this weekend was eye opening in a way. my energy this week must just match the revelations. I slept a little longer last night which has me feeling a little more awake and a lot clearer in thought. this is a good thing. almost done. getting things done feels a a little more inspirational than … Continue reading 2025 | chapter 10, page 293 | a little more awake
still not done with assessments. i really needed my brain and better planning. unforeseen things ... we sing ... again ... still ... always and then there's choir ... the notes ... i need to put some work into this in the next two weeks. somehow i feel like my life is standing still and … Continue reading 2025 | chapter 10, page 292 | notes and words
a window. a view. somewhere. a hospital. sunset. doing something today to prove to myself that i can finish a thing this thing like this. the continuous battle between my willpower brain stamina distraction ... get it done ... need to get it done ... proof ... for the same reason that i started writing … Continue reading 2025 | chapter 10, page 291 | get it done so you can be done
mouse. work. shine bright like a diamond! no long writings today. it's weekend. rest time. and a little work time. i'm still sleepy and quiet and slow. i should be better with sleep and planning and workings. interesting how age and illness configures one's life differently. maybe also the start of menopause amongst other things. … Continue reading 2025 | chapter 10, page 290 | end of the week … weekend
look up! don't miss it! i really didn't feel like working today. really. i slept too little this week. stress levels too high with the things that need to get done. day started with a huge headache. i was at work early and went for a walk ... headache persisted the whole day ... came … Continue reading 2025 | chapter 10, page 289 | weirdly surreal
today was a hard day in a way. it's been a hard two weeks. something is wrongish. not sure if it has to do with the rash that started appearing ... flare??? the learning ... learning new things ... new ways of being ... news ways my brain works new ways my brain forgets new … Continue reading 2025 | chapter 10, page 288 | learning … grace … start (again)
a little Stellenbosch stroll Spent the most of my work day in a workshop on capturing marks. Systems. The beauty of it. I was listening and thinking who these people are designing these systems and how it needs to speak to different platforms and even more … the trainers who are not the designers but … Continue reading 2025 | chapter 10, page 287 | training and a ticket
going home not much to say today. had to go to the doctor because there's a non-blanching rash on my legs. might be from my meds or condition ... doc doesn't know what to prescribe ... have to consult with the rheumatologist. ugh ... grateful for my nurse friend who made me check and then … Continue reading 2025 | chapter 10, page 286 | a rash … the doctor … bleh
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