The Commitment

It’s Monday, 04 March 2019.

I committed to start this blog properly today. I’ve avoided the commitment. It’s 23:22. I’m writing.

What do I want to share?

Do I want to tell you that I break promises to myself easier than to other people?

Or do I tell what I thought I would tell you about two weeks ago? Of course I should at least give you an idea of what it was, right? About how I can commit myself into liking someone more than I would if I did not make the commitment? And how this has hampered my growth in the past.
But now … #too42forthat
What triggered this? Talking to / seeing someone to whom I was an option instead of a choice.

Today is also the birthday of a man in whose presence I used to feel all the feelings I want to feel as a partner / girlfriend / wife. One of two. I suppose nr 3 is coming up? #hope

Herewith the commitment: Blogging every Monday and Thursday until my birthday in June 2019.

Hold me accountable.