2025 | chapter 4, page 101 | mtx and a meltdown

Second week of taking methotrexate (mtx), type of chemotherapy, for rheumatoid arthritis. it's taking it's time sitting with me. i've looked at all the available options and this is the best one. takes 6 - 12 weeks to start showing improvement in the system. i think i had a little meltdown when i heard about … Continue reading 2025 | chapter 4, page 101 | mtx and a meltdown →

2024 | page 114 of 366 | maybe i should have or maybe not

Write about a time when you didn't take action but wish you had. What would you do differently? i used to think that i have no specific regrets. but i do. it mostly stems from ignorance at the time, however in retrospect so many things could have been so different and i would have been … Continue reading 2024 | page 114 of 366 | maybe i should have or maybe not →

45/2021/15: Processing

Today was a processing kinda day. I don't even know how to explain it. I don't know what I have done but my head has made decisions on a few things in the process without me intentionally thinking about it. I've probably overthought it. And then left it. And then ... VOILA! Decision made. I'm … Continue reading 45/2021/15: Processing →

2020: 24

08 December 12 x 2 = 24 = 4 x 6 = 24 = 8 x 3The number 24 sits well with me for some reason. Hmmm ... Today I think a little about copping out instead of looking at my own words / actions critically to understand what I contributed to the creation of … Continue reading 2020: 24 →

2020: 36

26 November 12 x 3 = 36 = 18 x 2 = 36 = 9 x 4 = 36 = 6 x 63 Dozen (All Gold) Today started with a cancellation. I was a little relieved about it because I was tired. I don't sleep enough. My own doing. I also had coffee with a … Continue reading 2020: 36 →

2020: 75

18 October I read the following a few minutes ago:Someone asked me "Who hurt you?I replied "My own expectations" I was reminded about this earlier when I had a conversation with a friend about speaking the truth instead some euphemistic dance of words hoping that the other person can read the message between the lines … Continue reading 2020: 75 →

2020: 95

I lied. To myself first. I lied to myself about myself. I paid for that. How you might ask? Not being able to trust myself, my decisions, thoughts, capacity, ... Result? Helping people with their problems. Helping people. Listening to people. There's no problem with that. Unless I'm doing it to the detriment of myself. … Continue reading 2020: 95 →