45/2021/15: Processing

Today was a processing kinda day. I don’t even know how to explain it. I don’t know what I have done but my head has made decisions on a few things in the process without me intentionally thinking about it. I’ve probably overthought it. And then left it. And then … VOILA! Decision made.

I’m fascinated by my brain and how it makes decisions. Knowing that many things influence my decision-making capabilities and why I make the decisions I do even after thinking about it for a long time (brain algorithms) … there are patterns in my life and personality and … well, yeah. I know nothing about this except that it makes sense because of what was and is fed to me and also what I decide to allow.

However, at some point in time if I’m not happy with the results I can work on changing things to make the process better, more fluid, easier, more methodical, … depends, right?

My day still feels like I did nothing, but in my head I accomplished a lot!

It’s quite a peaceful feeling …

It doesn’t mean all decisions have been made, it just means that some has been finalized. Now for the implementation. The practicalities. Level 2. The hard part is over though. Acceptance.

I must say that this also happened because I spent some time with two of my closest peeps. Friends where I can speak my truth. Friends who tell me like it is. Friends who question me when they disagree or just give their opinion when it doesn’t sit well with them. A space where I feel safe and I can talk. It helps. A lot. These sessions are beautiful. I appreciate them. Every time. Always/ Whether we agree or disagree or agree to disagree.

Part of the process and the processing.

Such spaces are imperative in my life. I don’t have many of them. They keep me on a level where I want to be. A lovely feeling when a gathering is done. A reminder that friendship is an integral part of my being.

Connection.

Life with friends is blessed. Life is beautiful. Life is here to live!

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Image by Gerd Altmann from Pixabay

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