i didn't want to monday today. lethargic. tired. sleepy. no vigour. over it. went to the office. did some work. bleh. something has to change. it is going to. but first i need a holiday. i'm always amazed when i say that. i was unemployed for 4 years. i've been working since july 2021. month … Continue reading 20211213: blue monday
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20211212: (don’t) rest day
i need to learn to rest. it's Sunday today. i didn't go to church. omicron. the president tested positive for covid. fully vaccinated. the conversation around it is interesting. i'm over the drama and the division. why do people continue with the division in the midst of a pandemic? who's got the time? i don't … Continue reading 20211212: (don’t) rest day
20211211: new people
this is what i said. i went for coffee. 6 hours long coffee. i had to laugh afterwards. i met new people. how lovely it was to be in a different place, space, culture, people ... new people. unplanned. welcoming. lovely. easy-going, new people. and i spent hours in their company, in their home. the … Continue reading 20211211: new people
20211210: it’s oh so quiet
Image by Oleg Mityukhin from Pixabay today was a quiet day at work. i had a lot to do and did a lot. i was busy. it was quiet. i loved it. i need a few more of those. hopefully next week. got things to do. i need more quiet. everything has been too busy … Continue reading 20211210: it’s oh so quiet
20211208: passive/ion aggressive
i loved you once, i love you still somewhere deep down. i found myself veering towards the passive aggressive because the words i wanted to say to you was stopped in my throat. a while back. they want out. the opportunity to say them to you has passed. choices. time. it will subside. breathe. the … Continue reading 20211208: passive/ion aggressive
20211207: work from home
at home there is peace and quiet and i get lot of things done. i think. i thought. i was wrong. it requires some other level of spice now that i've been back to the office. but it gets done. i am also thinking of what i still need to do at the office. the … Continue reading 20211207: work from home
20211206: mammogram
there's a first time for anything, many things, mammograms ... today was that day. 5 years overdue. i went. it took a long time. didn't know all of the things were going to be done ... mammogram and a sonar ... intense. huge ground to cover. different angles of my breast. i know them better … Continue reading 20211206: mammogram
20211205: Sunday and her
church. godchild. friendship. coffee. pudding. quality time. love. Yes, I went to church this morning. And I had coffee and good conversation there. We laughed a little. The message was good. And then? Sunshine. That's what she is. Always excited to see me. Always loving. Always giving. Always lovely. A child she is. I hope … Continue reading 20211205: Sunday and her
20211204: venting
It's been going for a while. I have a place where I go where I say the things I want to say the way I really want to say it. after that it becomes a process of elimination. eliminating the words that make it subjective preventing the real message to come across. I'm grateful for … Continue reading 20211204: venting
20211201: it’s been a while
it's really been a while since i left some thoughts here ... new job, new routine, new information, new things to learn ... this is day 1 of my 6th month in my new job. the first 5 months have been interesting to say the least. i forgot about academia's things. gaps. i missed writing … Continue reading 20211201: it’s been a while
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